Back to The Past

I’ve been experiencing some changes lately.

It all started when I auditioned for Alice in Wonderland. The days after were some of the worst I’ve ever had. I can’t really explain it, but it was bad. When I found out I didn’t get Alice (I’m her understudy. Hundreds of people auditioned, so I don’t feel too bad. Still sucked.), I cried, but got over it quickly. I said I wasn’t the best this time, but I would work till I am. But anyway, I went to practice and I just…kind of changed. I felt like I did in 2009, when I was somewhat normal.

It might be due to being around people. I haven’t just had fun in so long. And the good mood has stuck. It’s the weirdest thing. I’m (dare I say it?) happy now. Just like I was.

I don’t know what it was about 2010 that fucked me up. I remember it being the Mayo Clinic. I came back a new person in the worst way possible. My mental state was something else. All of 2010 was like that. I can say it was the worst year of my life.

I’m not feeling much like writing now, so I think I’ll stop. I’ll probably write more later tonight.

Thanks for reading!