I’m so sorry I haven’t written in ages. SO much has happened, I’ve just been consumed with it all.

And it’s good, so no worries!

I suppose I should start right about where I left off. Directing classes, was it?

So I was in class, and remember how I had to write a scene for the writing one? Well, the teacher (he won an emmy!) told me how great it was. I thought he was just being nice and dismissed it. Later when we were on our way to the studio, he hung back with me and told me how amazing it was. Then later, he told me about this writing class and invited me to come. He said not to enroll, to just come. Later I find out that they’re actual college classes. (lskdflskdjflkajdfkja) He told me I have to write more and that I have a career in this. I almost pissed my pants.

So things were looking up, right? AND SHIT JUST GOT EVEN BETTER, FOLKS.

I decided to stop taking so much pain medicine. I pretty much quit through sheer will. I realized that I was much happier when I was sober. I felt like a fog had been lifted. I didn’t feel like I was dreaming as often, which is GREAT. I still feel it, but no where near as much as I did. I can’t even explain the feeling. I feel like I’m fighting a lot less with myself, and that when something good happens in my external world, I can let it make me happy. I’m not always bound down to a depression.

Don’t get me wrong, I still have some freaky issues. I’m just not a slave to myself as much as I was.

It really feels like things are starting to look up. I knew all the shit I’ve been through would be worth something. I mean, how many people get opportunity just handed to them like this? You can be a great writer all you want, but if you never get discovered, you won’t go anywhere. It’s almost unfair.

So yeah…I’m just so freakishly excited about taking FREE college classes.

I once read that when suicidal become homicidal, you’re getting better. I’ve been very homicidal lately. Just crazy in love with death and horror. It’s so great. I feel like I have a passion for life that I’ve been lacking. I get excited about things now.

Speaking of excited, Halloween. It is upon us. I have two amazing costume ideas. Little Red Riding Hood the huntress (very intricate) and Bloody Mary (not as intricate, but scary as hell.)

Okay, okay. I’ll stop rambling. I’m just so excited!

I’ll really try to remind myself to write more, because I like it quite a lot. I’ve just been so consumed with everything I got distracted.

Thanks for reading!